Wow... [PSP]

"I'm here for you no matter what. Even if we're not related, I still consider you my brother.."

Anna's my little sister as of now.. Haha, I think she struck something, I feel like I got a reason to be here now.

Thank you, lil sis

Updates, again [PSP]

-Seeing Jazz really cheers me up, though he's graduating soon so..
-Found a note from my dad, dunno if it was recent or from before he left, but it gave me some hope.
-Natalie cheered me up too (effortlessly once again), then surprised me with "You're a great catch. Any girl who doesn't see that is blind."
-Carah's looking out for me a lot lately, and notices when I'm even a little unhappy. I appreciate it a lot though, even if she reminds me of sis.. I gotta thank her later.

More later.

Holding On [PSP]

Life's been so tough lately.. yet also had its share of enjoyable moments. First, some of the bad..

-More family separation, mom hates me
-Dad disappeared again 3 weeks ago, no one's seen him.. most likely dead since he'd keep in touch otherwise...
- Not seeing Lauren again after 9 more school days.. My truest friend, I'll miss her terribly..
-Family problems, brother sick, being backstabbed..

The good I'll tell later, maybe.. I want to savor what time is left, then talk about it

The sunset is so nice..

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Getting a social life in the middle of the school year sucks.. I don't want to go out of town for the summer now.. especially since Jazz is graduating and Lauren is moving to Japan come August. It's probably part of what's bothering me.. I really don't want this year to end. I'm probably gonna hate junior year.. and I'm so lonely in the summer.
I'm really uninspired lately, and don't feel very much. So if I come off as blunt, I apologize.. Thanks for understanding though, Ruki.
I need a break badly.